No one ever knows. Does she even know?
No. I don’t. I can honestly say I’ve always been wild. I’m here, I’m there, I’m everywhere. I love it and hate it. I admire people who have been dedicated to one single thing their entire life. If I was lucky enough to find something I loved solely at a young age I would rule this world because my love for everything is so powerful. How could I choose a career at 15 when there’s a whole world out there? & what have I done for the past 17 years?…. survived I guess, that’s all I can show for. A troubled girl in a troubled world, making her way, one thought at a time. Do you really want to know some of my thoughts? Well, stick around and I’ll try to explain. *takes sip of coffee and a deep breath* As I re-read what I just typed out I regret referring to myself and the world as troubled but boy oh boy did I feel like we were sometimes and maybe now throughout some days but I guess it's how often we feed that wolf. I have many years to catch you up on and I don't even know where to start but I'll fill you in on today at least.
10:00am - I wake up to next to the love of my life. A quick good morning kiss as we both get up to start the day. Yes, a little sleep-in on a Monday morning, how lucky. I normally get up earlier but it was day light savings yesterday and we had such a relaxing Sunday together why not make it last a little longer. I plan to clean the kitchen and work on my website. You DO NOT KNOW how hard it is for a people pleaser to work on something for themselves, well maybe you do if you're like me but holy heck, starting a website that's based on me and my life, what was I thinking? I'm scared to love it as much as I do. My dad and I both fear success, which is so crazy because we are amazing, I know we are. What's worse than a shy creative? I don't want to find out. I'll try everyday to not be so shy because anyone who is wild like me knows deep down we do crave a connection.
3:00pm - I did a load of dishes and listed a couple t-shirts and having been writing this first longer blog post while enjoying my second cup of coffee. I think it's going well so far. I need to clean house and organize some of my writing for you to read. I have stories, letters and upcoming journals entries for you. I have 3 laptops full of notes and past pictures I'd love to share.
3:06pm - I'd like to say I love you all!
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